Wednesday, January 26, 2011

A Touching Encounter....


It was drizzling... I got up at 4:30 because I have to meet Sir Robert at the Mini Stop in Sta. Rita. The place is about 30 minutes travel from our place. We are scheduled to have an ocular visit in Camias, Planas, Pampanga where our Aeta scholars reside. Despite the bad weather I have decided to dispatch myself and prayerfully go for a special mission that which is to visit the Aetas.

Robert and I rode a jeepney and as we travel, I can’t help but get excited. I did not mind transferring from one jeepney to another. The last ride was on a tricycle where we have to pay 300 pesos. Hmmm...I was surprised on this, and so I asked the driver why the fare is expensive. The driver explained that it is far and that the road is muddy and slippery so they charge 300 for one way. What else can we do but to pay and be on board the tricycle just to reach our destination.

Waaaaaah... true indeed, it was far and the road is not cemented. Robert has to get out of the tricycle four times to help the driver push the tricycle while I was just seated trying to refocus myself and enjoying the ride and the scenery of the mountain.

After almost two hours of traveling we were able to reach Camias. We headed to the house of the Barangay Chairman who happens to be the father of our two Aeta scholars. The parents of our scholars welcomed us enthusiastically and I was able to see in their faces expressions of happiness. I introduced myself and Sir Robert to them.

We had a short introduction of our names and our background, and after the "hi and hello" thing, I began to ask questions. I came to know some realities in their lives, like, sometimes they have to skip meals due to lack of food, that some of our students have to walk on hours just to be home and just to be on the terminal where they have to take a ride. They also grow vegetables and fruit bearing plants that they can eat and sell. It pains me to hear about the scarcity of food, to see the children up in the mountain dirty, sickly and not being in school.

Yes, life for them is difficult, but despite their poverty they have hope and with their simple life I can see that they can laugh and have joy in their hearts. I saw them smile as I try to wear the “bangkat”, a round shallow basket made of closely interwoven bamboo splits usually carried by women. When I try to learn their dialect, they laughed because I mispronounce some of the words like; “manged” (beautiful), “marake” (many) etc. I have seen them get excited but shy as I take pictures of them. They look and smile at me as I photographed the food they served and the squash they gave us.

After the picture taking, we had a break. I have to help prepare our lunch so I went to the kitchen and assist the women. I chopped the onions and opened the canned goods. I helped in setting the table and we had our simple lunch with the chicken cooked in lemon grass and the canned goods.

We had our siesta after our lunch. It rained heavily and it has crossed my mind how will we go home if the rain will NOT stop. Hmmm...I tried to be calm and not worry...Since it was raining I had a power nap because I was deadly tired. I was not able to sleep the night before because of too much excitement. I had a short nap though because I was not comfortable lying on the bench. So I got up and went to the nearby house and there I found a group of aetas watching a Filipino film on the old television. I took some pictures of them and talked to some adults.

Then, I went back to the nipa hut and asked the Barangay Chairman to call on the parents so we can finish our dialogue of life. We gathered again inside the hall and as I listen to their dreams and aspirations, to their concerns, I can’t help but be sad and be down spirited. I made some proposals about growing some vegetables which could make them earn money. I also proposed raising goats and chicken. They sort of like the suggestion and told me that they are willing to do just anything for their children.

I was surprised of their willingness to learn cooking lessons, to improve their lifestyle and to be partners with us in the education of their children. The determination they have in sending their children to school has made a huge impact in my heart. This has inspired me to help them more and to support them in their dreams for their children to finish college.

I was moved by their words of gratitude for the effort and time we have given them. They were expressive of their gratefulness. They were happy because despite the distance and the bad weather we visited them. They also expressed their appreciation for the scholarship given by our school to their children. Everybody became silent when I started to talk about our institution. I explained to them our vision and mission, discussed our objectives and gave them the assurance that we will help them in the education of their children. I also made them realize that we are willing to help them and that our school is the only school in Pampanga which have accepted most of their children to be our scholars. I have to end the meeting by thanking them.

As we walk down the place where we have to get a ride, I couldn’t help but think of the encounter I had with them which is worth the long travel, the time and the effort I have exerted. I know in my heart that I will have a great task ahead, that there is a demand from me to do something good for them, and that I have to act intuitively. I accept that I have a work to be done and that there is a call that need to be answered, an urgent call...A CALL TO ACTION.

As I look back...in my heart is HOPE, hope that someday some of them through their children who are determined to finish their education will have a better life. I was sad though because I know that at the moment they can only wish for their dreams to come true, but for as long as there are people who are willing to share their blessings, for as long as there are people who are moved to help and make a difference in their lives, this dream is not far-fetched. With the GRACE of God, NOTHING is IMPOSSIBLE.

Monday, January 24, 2011

Counting my Blessings...




I have just thought of recognizing my blessings...and these are:

1. my faith in God
2. my life
3. my parents who gave me life and who are still alive
4. my husband who loves and supports me
5. my kids who serve as my inspiration in life
6. my brothers and sisters together with their children and my friends who are always there for me
7. my relatives who always recognize and affirm my talents and abilities
8. the books I read where I gain new insights, perspectives and wisdom
9. our home
10. my job which gives me a sense of fulfillment
11. my MQC family, the community I belong
12. my IFG family who are there for me everyday as I go to the office
13. my Aeta family who make me feel my sense of purpose in life aside from my family
14. my San Juan Community, the community where I live
15. my children and husband who are blessed with good health and work in Japan
16. my children in the country who are in school and who are just fine
17. my blog where I get to express myself
18. my gift of wisdom which helps me a lot in my discernment
19. my gift of being articulate which has always work to my advantage
20. my ability in writing my thoughts which sometimes make others see me as a catalyst
21. my gift of having knowledge of 5 languages and 5 dialects...I am learning more...
22. my talent in dancing...hmmm... I can dance...
23. the opportunities to able to help others
24. the chances to travel to other countries and in some local places
25. my good health which gives me strength and energy to go on
26. my sense of sight, hearing, touch, taste and smell
27. my looks...my aura...my whole being
28. the food that I eat which gives nourishment to my body
29. the water that I drink which quenches my thirst...
30. the passion and the zest I have for life
31. the students who make me realize the importance of sharing my knowledge and expertise
32. my helper at home who does things for me
33. my neighbors who affirm and give me positive comments whenever I do something for the community
34. the gifts that I receive with or without occasion
35. the people I encounter on the streets who give me opportunities to help and be socially responsible
36. the passion I have in doing my work
37. my ability to make people feel comfortable with me.
38. the gift of having a giving and forgiving heart
39. the challenges and trials I face in life...these make me the woman that I am now...
40. the problems at times that challenges me to resolve
41. the circumstances in my life that challenges my ability to process and reflect
42. the challenging tasks given to me which require my patience and understanding
43. the part-time job I have which gives me financial resources in order to help others
44. the time that I have to do things I want
45. the right given to me to make a choice and decision
46. the luxury of time to pamper myself with massage, spa etc....
47. the money which I use to buy what I need and some of my wants
48. the people who are one with me in my advocacy
49. my charm and compassion on people
50. the blessing that I am a blessing to others.

there are more blessings in my life...and as I journey, I know I will forever be grateful to God for showering me HIS abundant blessings....Thank you, Lord!

In Solitude...

It has always been my heart's desire to be alone and to be in silence so I can be with myself. Right now, I am having this moment of silence. My kids are out...and I am all by myself. Now I have the chance to be in touch with my self...to inhale...to exhale...to close my eyes and be in the moment of silence...I began to listen to my heartbeat...the sounds my ears are capable of hearing...

what a wonderful experience...I never had this chance for a long time...to be in solitary moment.

As I put myself into quiet moment, I came to renounce some of my senses, and with this, I was able to listen to myself. I haven't done this for a long time...to be alone for a while...to just free my mind of any concerns...not thinking of anything...no worries, no fears...no emotions, no wants, no desires...just being with my self...and embrace the silence...I know and I was aware that I was in the state of reverence because I was with the presence of the Spirit. How I wish I can be in this situation for a longer time...but I have to be back to reality...back to the world of noise.

With the experience, I was able to mortify my heart and experience deep sense of silence. I was able to talk to myself and speak to my soul and have the awareness of my very own existence.

Life Is Like A Cup of Coffee - Inspirational Video Movie

Sunday, January 23, 2011

I See You Lord by Aiza Seguerra

Life is a Blessing...


Why does a man feel discontentment?
It is because he has many needs and wants.
He has many dreams and aspirations,
and longs for fame, fortune and power.


He complains, he worries,
and runs through life so fast.
Thinking that the blessings in his life is far,
far better than the burdens.

He forgets to look at what he has,
to be thankful of his life, to appreciate his
friends and familly,
and to count his blessings.

To live at the moment is a blessing.
It is a gift because the life we have is ours.
We have the power to do what we want with it.
To control our own life.

Let us then live our life well.
Embrace the power to make it
a life that is exciting, worthwhile and with purpose.
We are blessed with this life...
Let us be thankful and be contented.

mbg 4/22/09

Phenomenolohiya ng Isang Ina....


                                                     
Uha! Uha! Uha!

Iyak ng sanggol ang aking huling narinig bago ako makatulog na me ngiti sa aking mga labi. Alam kong sa pagpikit ng aking mga mata ako ay isa ng ganap na babae at isa ng ina.

Ang magdalantao ay isang karanasang di ko malilimutan sa aking buhay. Hindi nga biro ang kanlungin mo sa iyong sinapupunan sa loob ng siyam na buwan ang isang sanggol. Sa aking karanasan, iba iba ang aking naramdaman, nandoon na ako ay sumakit ang ulo, sumakit ng tyan,  nilalamig, naiinitan, di makatulog, ayaw ng ibat ibang amoy, madalas mahilo at magsuka at me mga karamdamang sadyang mahirap ipaliwanag. Akala ko noong una ang lahat ng ito ay mga kasabihan lang, na umaarte lang ang mga buntis, ngunit napagtanto ko na me katotohan pala sa ibang babae ang mga karamdamang ito, at isa nga ako sa nakaranas ng mga ito.

Sabi nila, kapag ang babae ay nasa kabuwanan na, ang isang paa daw nito ay nasa hukay dahil mahirap daw ang manganak. Sadyang ito ay mapanganib dahil di mo tiyak kung paano ka makakaraos sa pagluwal ng sanggol na nasa iyong sinapupunan. Mahirap ngang ipaliwanag ang pakiramdam ng isang babaeng naghihintay nalang ng araw ng pagluwal n'ya sa kanyang anak,  dahil pagkainip, pangamba, takot, pagkasabik at galak ang kanyang mararamdaman, at higit sa lahat, walang katiyakan kung ano ang maaaring nitong sasapitin. Sa aking pagdadalantao, sa pagdarasal ako kumapit noong malapit na ang aking kabuwanan...walang humpay na dasal sa Poong Maykapal na sana ako ay makaraos ng maluwalhati.

Sa aking karanasan, ako ay nagkaroon ng kaisipan at kaalaman na ang kabuluhan at ang kahulugan ng isang pagiging ganap na babae ay natutupad sa pagbubuntis nito at sa pagsilang ng isang munting anghel mula sa kanyang sinapupunan. Ang kaganapang ito ay maituturing na isang pagpapala dahil hindi naman lahat ay nabibiyayaan ng isang supling sa kanyang sinapupunan. Hindi nga bat me mga ilang kababaihan na nais na magkaanak ngunit sila ay hindi maaaring magdalantao? Ilan na ba ang nangarap at nagdasal upang sila at mabiyayaan ng isang supling? Ngunit hindi nga lahat ay me kakayahan...hindi lahat ay pinagpala na magkaroon ng isang anak. 

Ang pagsilang ng isang sanggol ay isa ngang masasabing pagpapala dahil ito ay nagbibigay ng kaganapan sa isang babae upang sya'y maging ina, ngunit kaakibat nito ay ang malaking responsibilidad sa pagpapalaki at pag gabay sa paglalakbay sa buhay ng batang isinilang. Ang pag- aaruga at paglaan ng pangangailangan ay kasama din sa dapat gampanan ng isang ina. Mahirap man isipin ngunit ito ang katotohanan at realidad.   Ngunit ang lahat ng ito ay nagiging madali dahil sa walang kapantay na pagmamahal ng isang ina na di matatawaran. Pagmamahal na kung saan nakahanda itong kalimutan ang sarili at ibigay ang buhay para sa kanyang anak. Pagmamahal na kung saan handa s'yang magsakripisyo upang maitaguyod ang kanyang anak. Isa ngang dakila ang ina dahil nakahanda itong suungin ang ano mang panganib mailigtas lamang at mailuwal sa buhay ang kanyang anak. Dakila sapagkat siya ay nagmamahal ng walang kapalit at walang hangganan.  

Ako ay pinapagla dahil ako ay nabiyayaan ng isang malusog na anak. Isang makahulugang karanasan at regalo na mula sa Diyos Ama.  Isang sanggol na alam kong magbibigay ng kahulugan sa aking paglalakbay sa buhay. Hindi ko maipaliwanag ang saya at kagalakan sa aking puso sa isang tila milagro ng  aking iluwal ang isang malusog na sanggol. 

Mula sa aking pagkakaidlip...muli kong narinig ang iyak ng isang sanggol...nagising ako....at nakita ko sa aking tabi ang isang munting anghel... isang sanggol na lalake na malusog at pogi. Habang s'ya ay aking tinititigan napaisip ako at nasabi sa aking sarili..."ako nga ay isa ng ina." Napangiti ako dahil sa kagalakang aking naramdaman...sabay ang pag....Uha! Uha! Uha! ng anghel sa aking tabi.  

  Ang aking APAT na Anak

Sa tuwing sasapit ang Araw ng mga Ina, aking binabalikan ang aking sinulat na ito upang maibalik ang natatatanging karanasan ko bilang isang Ina.  Apat na ang aking mga anak, ....Mother's Day na naman...pang 26th na mother's day ko na po sa Linggo.  Hmmm...nakapag SILVER Anniversary na pala ako bilang isang Ina...




Meron na rin akong apo na napakagandang si Nichole.  Di nga madali ang maging isang INA...napakarami mong dadaanang pagsubok at mga hamon, mga sakripisyo at pagtitiis,  ngunit ang kapalit naman ng lahat ay ang LIGAYAng iyong mararamdaman tuwing makikita mo sila.  
                                                           
Tunay ngang dakila ang mga ina.  Di mapapantayan at matatawaran ang kanilang kadakilaan dahil ang kanilang pagmamahal sa kanilang mga anak ay walang hanggan.  Sa aking INA na nagbigay buhay sa akin, nais ko pong ipahayag ang aking pasasalamat.  Salamat po sa inyong pag aruga at pagmamahal.  Salamat sa lahat ng mabuting asal na inyong itinuro at sa lahat ng mga magagandang karanasan.  Salamat sa inyong pag antabay sa aking buhay may asawa at sa pagmamahal ninyo sa akin at sa aking pamilya.



Sa lahat ng mga INA sa mundo, dasal ko po na tayo ay patuloy na pagpalain at bigyan ng maraming biyaya ng Poong Maykapal .  Hangad ko sa bawa't ina ang magandang kalusugan, kapayapaan sa ating pamilya, pagmamahalan at kaligayahan sa ating mga puso.  Maligayang Bati sa lahat ng mga INA!...HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY po sa ating lahat.  God bless us All!


Promises...


I had these thoughts these past few days and I promise myself to share these in this blog...

I have thought of just making promises to myself...

I promise to be myself (the who and what I am) for the rest of my journey in life...this is accepting my human limitations, my weaknesses and my shortcomings...

I promise to be grateful for all the blessings I have and share these to those who are in need...extend and reach out to others ....

I promise to continue to serve my sense of purpose in life....this. I am absolutely aware of.... I know I am on the right track...so I guess, I just have to continue doing things that please my Father in heaven.

I promise to make sound and healthy choices and decisions...the need for me to really foresee the results and consequences of every choice and decision I make.

I promise to be more responsible and committed in doing the tasks as a child of God.

I promise to listen to the concerns of others not only with my ears, but with my HEART for me to be able to empathize with them in their situation.

I promise to understand people with hang ups or inhibitions, those with idiosyncrasies, those who are NOT level headed, immature and insecure...I will pray for them and raise their issues to the Father God.

I promise to express my ideas, my opinions and insights at all times. Keeping them will not make me the WHO and WHAT I am for I will not be real and true to myself.

I promise to humble myself with all life's blessings...to be a down- to- earth person, to be an ordinary woman, doing extra ordinary things in life.

I promise myself to live for the moment...not thinking about the past and the future...

I promise to always forgive those who have wronged me, because I know that I have a forgiving heart and that this would please my Father.

I promise myself to use and share all my competencies, the talents and abilities God has bestowed upon me...

I promise to acknowledge and thank the people who bring out the best in me...those who affirm me and believe in me...

I promise to commit myself to principles and not to preferences for I know that when I am committed to these God will see me through in whatever situation I will have in life.

I promise myself NOT to expect anything from anybody. Disappointments in life happen because of expectations...

I will have more promises ....I promise to add in the list of my promises as I journey to life... because that I PROMISE to myself.

Isang Pagninilay...

(Sa Pamamagitan ng Pasasalamat)

Sa Buhay...

Pasasalamat ang nais kong ialay sa ating Poong Maykapal dahil sa maraming pagpapala at biyayang patuloy kong tinatanggap sa buhay. Natuto akong maging kontento kung ano man ang meron ako magmula ng ako ay mamulat sa kalagayan ng ating mga kapatid na nasadlak sa kawalan. Ang masaksihan ang hirap na kanilang dinadaanan upang sila ay makaraos sa pang araw-araw ay lubos na nagpahirap sa aking kalooban. Namulat ako sa maraming bagay na sa isip ko ay di ko man lang nabigyan ng pansin noon. Salamat sa pagkakataon at hindi pa huli ang lahat na ako ay matutong makontento sa kung ano mang meron ako bilang tao at bilang nilalang ng DIYOS.

Sa Relasyong Pangkaibigan...

Sadyang mahirap nga ang magkaroon ng tunay na kaibigan, ngunit ako ay mapalad dahil ako ay nabiyayaan. Mga kaibigang laging nandyan upang maging bahagi sa ano mang kalagayan ko sa buhay at mga handang makinig sa aking kaisipan tungkol sa mga bagay-bagay. Salamat ang nais kong iparating sa kanila... sa kanilang pang unawa sa kung ano mang kahinaan meron ako. Salamat sa pagtanggap sa aking pagkukulang bilang isang kaibigan. Humihingi ako ng paumanhin at kapatawaran sa mga di ko sinasadyang pananakit ng inyong mga kalooban. Salamat sa pagbibigay ng lakas sa tuwing nararamdaman ko ang aking kahinaan, salamat sa mga salitang nakakapagbigay inspirasyon at sa paniniwala sa aking mga kakayahan...at higit sa lahat salamat sa inyong TIWALA at RESPETO.



Sa Pananampalataya...

Ito ay isang malalim at mahiwaga na personal na karanasan. Isang relasyon na aking papahalagahan habang ako ay nabubuhay. Natuto akong magbigay dahil sa paniniwala at pananampalataya. Natuto akong magpatawad dahil alam kong magkakaroon ako ng galak sa aking puso at kapayapaan sa aking pag iisip...dahil ito ang nais ng Diyos. Salamat sa regalong karunungan... lalong lumalim ang aking pang unawa sa buhay at higit sa lahat ang aking PANANAMPALATAYA. Salamat sa mga pagkakataong aking naramdaman at naranasan kung ano nga ba at paano ang masaktan dahil nakita ko ang miserableng buhay ng ibang tao...dahil dito natuto akong MAGDASAL at UMASA para sa kanila. Salamat sa patuloy na pag gabay sa aking mga desisyun sa buhay, sa pag antabay sa araw araw, sa pag iingat Mo sa akin at sa aking pamilya at higit sa lahat sa PAGMAMAHAL na walang hanggan at WALANG KAPANTAY.